31.7.06
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COWS GO MOO !
9:44 PM
She doesn't want to look anymore,
Because everywhere she turns,
The signs all point the same way,
Confirming her worst fears.
I dont know why I come here anymore. All I do here is type out a few meaningless words and underscore the words I've been dying to say, but oh well. I've learnt from Your mistakes, and I know quiet speaks best. In a blink of an eye, I dont know what's happened, and I suddenly feel that the only person I can trust is myself. And this distance between _&I seem horrible, I remember when we were so close and now, I feel so foreign to everything that's happened to you. I guess I've been taking you for granted all this while, and it feels weird without you to fall back on, I miss the everydays I spent with you, so so much, you know? And to the two CWs, I'm so sorry I wasnt there when you needed someone, next time please call okay! And everywhere I look, it just brings me back to that same thought, yes the one I've been hoping was just another foolish thought, but I guess this time it's for real. And everytime I see the signs it cuts me deeper. It's for all the wrong reasons, I'm really in denial.
And I just heard NAPFA challenge has been canceled, like wth, we trained for nothing! :/
School's been hell, tests after test, yes, my PPR for this term is going to be so, ugh. Okay, I'm gonna be strong (: Ey, and suddenly I really miss St. Dominic's choir ): Shan didnt come to school today, i bet she pon lor. (right!) And I think all this trying to be hero is making me bitter inside, I guess I owe cindy an apology for being such a lousy table partner. You know I love you right Chia XinYu ! <3
Here's to all who are upset and feeling like fuck.
Tonight my heart is cold, lost in Your lies. Shallow advise.